chris - during the skeptic times, now i know why...
i used to be a diehard skeptic, esp after since when i broke up with meihua last time, and was bitter at pretty much everything christian this kind of echoes the days i was skeptic, even now, somtimes, i become skeptic at times.. gee
from an article on the web
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To be honest, I also had another motive. As I challenged those who believed in God, I was deeply curious to see if they could convince me otherwise. Part of my quest was to become free from the question of God. If I could conclusively prove to believers that they were wrong, then the issue is off the table, and I would be free to go about my life.
proof of GodI didn't realize that the reason the topic of God weighed so heavily on my mind, was because God was pressing the issue. I have come to find out that God wants to be known. He created us with the intention that we would know him. He has surrounded us with evidence of himself and he keeps the question of his existence squarely before us. It was as if I couldn't escape thinking about the possibility of God. In fact, the day I chose to acknowledge God's existence, my prayer began with, "Ok, you win..." It might be that the underlying reason atheists are bothered by people believing in God is because God is actively pursuing them.
if i had a chance to have dinner with anyone in the world, anybody alive that is, i would have dinner with the grey's anatomy writers its the way they lock down the daily issues, and just drives the point home while making a tv episode,
the relationships between couples, ex-marrieds, colleagues, lovers, friends, acquaintances and how fragile it all is,
whoa..
who would you want to have dinner with if you could have the chance?
saturday night, went out with rainer meh asto justin eugene g.q went for fish co, ate 2 platters for 2, was so tempted to scam the people there that i was still an employee, went to cathay, watched cloverfield,
i personally like cloverfield, i mean the shaky camera is the style! its the style of the whole movie, and th whole movie is basically watching a home video of people who were trapped in New York when the monster shows up,
its gripping seriously, its raw, its ground level, you feel like your there,
my only gripe, and peeve, is people talking loudly during a show, if i had my way, i will knock them unconscious from all their stupid comments during the movie,
ah well, this movie is the first at experimental filming, naturally reviews are mixed..
went to kbox after that, as history and theory proves, i have a voice only a mother could love,
but it was fun, the company was good, yeah.. it was a good outing i bet, but sadly didnt manage to book the Wii at e2max
"i saw that you were a human being, and i decided that i wanted to be one too"
i been thinking, cuz my conscious mind and my unconscious mind have been at war for ages, and its driving me nuts
am i too controlled? thinking too much into things before i act, whereas just jumping in and deciding things on the spot seems so much better altho unwise all my rationales all my reasons in the decisions i made so far, with all the factors already calculated in my brain it seems the perfect logical choice, but is it the right choice, my heart asks
in my past i was someone im definitely not proud of, someone who still scares me once in a while, but in my effort to change have i done too much?
1 month and one day left,
anyway, i have reviews from good friends! who are movie buffs, anyway they said cloverfield is nice hurrah but for the people who get naseous from jerky images, bring a bag just in case
i am going to make sure i get to book the Wii, I WILLL.. =D
i always wondered why every kid was always afraid of the monsters under the bed, but every kid had the same fear, no matter which country, state, or language, all were scared of the bottom of the bed, another one, kids always seemed to have supe powers, both real and imagination manifested, one which i always noticed happening was that they knew when exactly the phone was going to ring, its like they are electronically psychic or something
but notice when we become grown up, we leave our childish selves behind, along with all our "sight" and "superpowers" and astute gift for noticing things..
the bible once said, or its still saying, since the bible is pretty much forever, well, but it says something along the lines of
(Let it not seem to you that one of these little ones is of no value; for I say to you that in heaven their angels see at all times the face of my Father in heaven.)
(Then some people took little children to him, so that he might put his hands on them in blessing: and the disciples said sharp words to them. 14 But Jesus said, Let the little ones come to me, and do not keep them away: for of such is the kingdom of heaven. 15 And he put his hands on them, and went away.)
ah well, maybe kids were spiritually more in tune when young at the level where then even adults had trouble reaching
i came across this sordid email in my (thousand and one) daily spam mail.. but it makes sense, whenever i hear of guys being total assholes to the fairer sex.. while the latter has virtually unlimited patience which is beyond normal human limits to my view..
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To girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS,> AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT "
im amaazed, im not alone in this little piece of internet space which i call my own, less than 50kb, my own personal space people actually read this!
so hence this boost to self-worth(im kidding, im not THAT needy) i shall blog more and with pictures, as often as i can steal my dad's DSLR out for shooting,
i been talking to lina nowadays, shes a really great listener and someone to have endless conversations with, and like me a, a movie buff, even tho we dun exactly see eye to eye bout movies(I Am Legend was not badddd, as a movie by itself, not as an book adaptation, the book is WAYYY BETTER)
but she mentioned something that i feel quite determined to prove wrong, she thinks that the world is a really sick place, well i think its how the earth is run by unscrupulous people which is sick but i tihnk theres beauty all around here.. and to get that, DSLR photos
well its weird, the inability of human beings to move on, i thot i have alreadey closed one of the weirdest and darkest and sordid chapter of my life, yet, it comes back to haunt me, whispering, creeping, taunting when deja vu sets in, i used to be terrified of my inner demons, so nice to lose oneself to the lust and power of anger and pure rage,
but i thought, "ah what the hell" turned around, kicked those inner demons in the nuts, and went back to sleep
well im back, flew back on the 30th fall sick tho, during watchnight service so had to leave, but its the 1st day of 2008! feeling good/better already
so i went to watch AVP with shimin AVP is plainly, quite dumb, its got its shockers but overall very very dumb
just recovered from flu and now im getting a mild case of fever rawr,
day out with shimin was fun, i was late, cuz of reasons not caused by me, discovered me and shimin have the same phone, like the same stuff at Mos Burger, and basically suaning each other bout our non-existant sex life, well mine at least, no idea bout her, shes so detailed its scary.. LOL im kidding btw in the movie she was cold, (later then she told me) well since i gave her my jacket and she didnt want it, to bad, told her to go and hug the Huge Lady beside her, im not discrimating against people with large sizes, but they do radiate alot of heat, try hugging one in a cold enviroment =D she really changed man, not so weepy, and not so love torn, FINALLY, a girl who actually moved on, YAY, finally, at long last went to check out times, and yeah, i really need to read up man, so many books to read, im so heading to the liibrary tml..
2008 has finally showed up, and even tho this year has a big event for me, i really thank God for the friends i have made over the years and to give me the ability to do follow-up with them, despite my overly lazy self
08 = NDU = loads of MOOLAH = tortured mental = great body later = datings! = massive planning required for after-navy activities
