great, now im totally at a lost at wad to update..im broke till april.. but once it hits.. movie! im so gonna watch mr bean's holiday.. aw c'mon.. any mr bean fans? juz somebody to watch with meeeee... lol..
well.. went for medical checkup today.. after everything from 1. peeing on coloured paper.. 2. having sucking things placed on ya chest to measure heartbeat.. 3. coughing while naked..(this one is juz dumb) 4. 5 parts to a IQ test! 5.hearing noises and seeing things
i got a PES A i got work to do.. a file to find.. but due to weird msn stuff.. im gonna sleep.. and wake up early first..
RAWR.. screw you.. im not that simple.. and your damn attitude requires dislocation..
i dun believe this.. im involved in an MTV.. for church.. and it got a freakishly small deadline! submittable on 8 april.. Woot.. production this coming weekend... 4 groups of talents.. insane amount of pre-planning is required..
we are too comfortable in our comfort zone.. doing things that we know we do best.. and not bothering to learn more.. just because we think "we learned enuff, thats all we wanna learn"
wad the heck is with that attitude? if you wanna call it "specialization" i will hit you with a knuckle sandwich.. LOL kidding..
i wanna be a like a Renaissance Man, who are knowing in almost any field.. who do excel in any subject that they are interested in.. you cant stop andjust say you are gonna do this.. its mmoving forward..
dear reader, sorry if i do bore you, just that this is my blog, and since im not rushing my lungs out for a produciton and that life has finally slowed down to a walk, im been doing lots of thinking.. i wanna be a better person, i wanna be a be a better friend i wanna be a more interesting person to chat with i wanna make you smile even when you are down
and moreoever, i wanna grow up to be the man that i know i want to be.. the man that i knew my grandfather and my father are currently.. thats my goal.. which i am gonna pursue to my dying breath..
Chris - yesh i know i shouldnt have worn just underwear and shoes..
its kind of ridiculous to go running in just that.. altho technically thats all you need.. did i really do that? maybe.. its something fun and insane to do in the wee hours in the morning
somebody, actually 2 people actually, have said i was overprotective.. maybe they are right, maybe i am.. it kind of gets that way when i am concerned.. or at least worried.. but i do know that it gets stifling or smothering at times.. they need space to breathe.. space to fall, space to make mistakes.. always wondered, should i tell them directly wads wrong with their damn lives? or should i juz sit and wait, and help them out when the emotional plane wreck that is never ever delayed comes crashing, right on time everytime.
ever had this urge? that u desperately need an other half.. to care about, to love, to keep safe, to share secrets, to spend both quiet and noisy times together, or to hug in a cold day? (btw, im not embarressed to say such things..it happens, everyone more or less knows wad i am talking about.. and i dun care.. i just say it, screw tact) why? why are we built with this urge.. its like whoa.. im 20! its a bit sad! im still single..(stupid thinking that btw) why fling? why fling when u know its never gonna go anywhere?
i spent the better part of my poly life trying to understand people, sociology, you could call it, how interactions can make u pissed, happy, warm etc. how it can shape you as a person..
i even had a 5 hour argument with a friend about the soul.. wad is it? how do you define a soul? where is the soul located? the heart? the brain? the toes?!
can someone please answer me? cuz life's questions are many.. and they are driving the sanity out of me..
watched TMNT! quite nice lah the show.. but very very short! rawrr.. like super nice animation.. but juz a little too short =( storyline is a little fast but hey if u are a fan.. watch it.. =D
it was fun.. hanged out with the imd bunch.. then half went home.. and i went with the other half to eat tau huay.. at the back alley.. got spray paint stuff.. looks super beng lahs..
after that.. went separate ways.. taught mehmeh how to take the nel SMARTLY.. newbie to the nel lahs..
sent her back.. made her fed up.. LOL ANYWAY night walk! this friday! anybody on?even tho its really really close.. cuz next day got church production! =D
wad the hell is no comment? its like you purposefully try to sit on the fence, and disdaining a reply.. nobody DOESNT have an opinion about the subject.. its rude.. kinda..
"vote for me!"
okayy.. if u are a friend.. i wouldnt mind.. but if ya some total stranger/somebody who nvr talks to me unless he/she needs something..NO WAY, stop asking/spamming..
i have added friends on my contact list who do not talk to me other than me being mac support.. i dun being mac support.. but if you treat me like im nothing BUT mac support, i will get very anal.. =D
sorry, require to rant after massive amounts of pple asking me for help, but nvr there when i need some..
to a great many of my friends, this does not apply.. but there are some.. *shruggs* more or less finishing my housework.. getting a haircut.. then watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles!
oh ya, watched 300 too.. AWESOME show.. im so gonna buy the DVD and watch that
sook's mom had her birthday recently.. happy birthday auntie!
just more or less finished my classes for this block le.. to be honest, it just doesnt feel like its over.. im swamped with 2 music videos for church.. plus loads of housework considered my parents arent in town.. juz me and my sis.. and rabbit..
the last imd chalet was juz over.. and i had tons of fun there.. didnt sleep much for 2 nights.. but had tons of laughs and screams from fatal frame..
after my parents come back.. i might go overseas for a while.. need to get away from everything.. i need time i guesss.. =D
anyway.. night hike! at mandai.. year 3s and year 2s invited.. =D
hanged out with mh, jon, merv, yw, pork, with addition of ant later we went to sentosa, i was late, cuz i had tons of stuff to settle,
met up with meihua, then headed down to sentosa, when we got there, you could see 3 idiots with a huge crater in the ground, i mean HUGE, you could sit inside it, like a jacuzzi, and there were room for 3.. NUTS
loads of water frisbee and trying to get meihua to strip..(LOL) no lahs, she was in this tank top the whole time, when she had a bikini underneath, -.- be proud of ya body! hell if you have a tummy, flaunt it! shout to beach-ers "i love my one pack!"
then had insane amounts of carl junior, then headed home,
parents are out at france, leaving me and my sis at home, aww, but im getting broke fast.. nooooo
im going wakeboarding/cable skiing this thursday, wanna go?
ever fell asleep so fast that you couldnt even remember closing your eyes?
then dreaming of a weirder reality than your own, but the only thing that seems familliar is the people in your dream, that their personality, actions, whatnot, all remain the same, and its strange how real they seem,
is dreams like a way for our brains to get online with other brains and like meet in another world? is it possible for 2 people to share the same dream at the same time?
sorry if i seem like im raving, but its interesting,
i had a dream, and it was at a park with fish, sea monkeys, both tiny and huge, and then at a pizza party at a house, with 6 different kinds of pizza, and you were there, (of course im not gonna tell you who is it) muz see whether did anyone have the same dream as i did..
LOL alright, science of sleep moment is over, its after FYP, and i cant believe how busy i am, 2 classes, UIR and Creative Thinking UIR has tons of stuff to do, Creative Thinking i have a nice dysfunctional group to manage! rawr mom's flying off on thursday night sook's flying on friday morning UIR submission is Thursday CT is on Friday
WTH! why does it all clash? damn, confirm no sleep liao..
IT shows aftermaths is me apparently, endless rounds of installing software, configuring windows to work.. rawrrr..
reminds me when i was a kid, i loved lightsabers, r2d2, i always wanted a robot to talk to, that could beep and whistle and probably destroyed many clothes poles while playing lightsabers =D
ah, when i was a kind, damnnn, so long ago,
went back to cafe cartel to work, everytime i go back, something would have changed, and its more and more screwed up.. lol
oh yeah, KAIEL's BACK! the screen is brighther, hes got a clean up, and it feels weird, cuz the enter key doesnt pop up anymore, casuing me to fix it back, i kinda miss it, it feels like it will pop out, but it nvr does anymore, aww,
met up with jon first, was supposed to swim, but end up we went to e2max to play GEARS OF WAR! then ended up screaming like babies and being really fun and sadistic(me) with the chainsaw,theres more man, wait till you meet the berserker! =D
met up with pork halfway and were late, but we concluded the game was worth it to be late -gleeful looks-
ant celebrated his bdae, we went to settler's cafe to play really really weird board games,
Game:PIT sweared like nuts cuz we JUST couldnt get the cards that we wanted, its like snap,
Game:Sabotage quite okay, meihua didnt like it cuz it was slow paced, but its very sneaky
Game:i'm the BOSS this one is so manipulative, bargaining, cheating, corporate backstabbing, and bribing and threatening, all to earn millions in deals, that its fun! this one has cards that you can send pple on holidays, snatch control and claim fortunes cuz you are their inane relatives, damn, this game is fun lor, one day i ask a bunch of poly friends to come and play, you will love this game man =D
damn fun lahs, again again! planning for chalet and nighthike currently, damn! i want an xbox360 man, just for gears of war.. lol..
to you, again, i dun know why you are so freaking hard to read, so hard to understand, so hard to open up to know the hurts inside, you could try to alienate us, but we wont ever alienate you, whether you believe that anot, things wont go back to the things it was, but im glad it wont, cuz its boring if it nvr moved on, but, wad must we do to finally make you trust us and be normal with us again?
dip show, is over, im feeling sian over it, cuz i didnt do as well as i should, but ah well, 2nd chances, it sucks, but im glad for it
i the weary warrior is back from his dirt trip, cleaned the HUGE amount of GUNK from behind the washing machine, some forsaken clump of dirt, rawr, DIEE! who the hell needs mr muscle when you got a broom and a mini-tsunami of water? possibilities? endless
anyway, dip show is under way, i have a poster! kitchen commando a spoof of splinter cell and lighting to mask my character, cuz his texturing and skin looks like shit currently
Kaiel is coming back baby, my macbookpro has been in repair for a week, cuz the damn backlight died, so getting it back tml.
was working out of school computers, finally did my damn FYP poster, he looks cool, a silohuette with a splinter cell pose, LOL, it was fun, seeing everybody, at their finest, at their works, damn, i wish i did a better job, ah well, i moved on, already started planning for the next one,
it makes sense when its all up to you, but when you start to have to explain to other pple, you juz start to lose that self confidence, that area of control which you think you possess, you arent an island, nobody is, quit bottling everything inside, and actually start doing what you said you would,
wad afie said really stung somewhere, but its the truth, and the truth hurts somewhere man.
goodnights, all, damn imd-ers of 2006/07 see you around
